Rugby league is Tremayne Chatfield's sanctuary, but it wasn't always that way. There was a time when the thought of the game he loved hurt him so much he needed alcohol to numb the pain.
So Chatfield got drunk. So drunk that he would be hungover for a week. So drunk that he would forget about how cancer snatched away two of his biggest supporters - dad Harold and brother Eli.
It was the only way the Yass Magpies recruit knew how to bury his emotions after giving up on his NRL dream to put family first.